Friday, July 9, 2010

Down the Rabbit Hole I Go

Ever feel like Alice on this journey? I do...

Here's the pile of meds, etc. Haven't gotten my low does HCG yet - I get it the day I start it - July 20th.

Here's me giving myself my first injection!

Why am I doing it myself? Because 4 days a week I will have to. On my days off, DH is going to do them. Going in wasn't bad, after I convinced myself to do it. Why didn't anyone tell me it would sting like a bitch????

The stress of today caused a bit of meltdown with DH and me. Just brought a lot of emotions to the surface. That and really diving into this....we both cried, we both expressed feelings of guilt, feelings of hope, feelings of terror...and we hugged and talked and kissed...

...and then we watched Ha.chi. There is a scene (SPOILER) where their daughter announces she is pregnant. Ater nearly losing our chance today, that made me lose it. And then of course it was just all tears frm there. What a stressful day. Holy moly...But we made it, with some help, and we are ON OUR WAY!!!

Here's a little video about being Alice.


  1. You are not childfree you are childless. Childfree people do not want children and they would not spend money on it.

  2. Yeup! Great analogy! We have all fallen down the rabbit hole. Well my friend- my first night of lupron- shot given by my husband in the bathroom of a reception hall. We are at a wedding tonight... Never a dull moment!

    I'm sorry you are blue. I wish for better days ahead... Graceful moments to be shared outside of the rabbit hole!

    Here we go!

  3. Oh my, what a rough day for you! I'm so happy that family came through and you are able to go on with your plans. It is crazy how expensive certain treatments are...totally crazy! I am so glad you and your hubby are communicating and talking about things though. Being on the same page is so important sometimes. Take care tonight and get some rest - I bet you need it after this day! :)

  4. Holy cow! I came by to thank you for your kind and understanding words on my blog today. Your blog demonstrates what I mean about putting forth positivism in the face of a daunting task. I pray this works for you, I'm bookmarking your blog and will be checking in on your journey.

  5. We never got the opportunity to do injectibles - there's no docs here that go that far with infertility. :( That said though, I'm really not sure I could give myself the shots! I think I'd pass out before the needle ever went in! Haha. You're a tough cookie!! Crossing my fingers for you guys!!

  6. Good for you for doing your own injects! That's more than I can say for myself. Freaks me out. Fingers crossed for you guys!!!

  7. a tip for the stinging: be sure to warm up the lupron to room temp first. it will help a lot!

  8. Good luck! Try to just take it one day at a time.

  9. you look like a natural...I'd write more, but I've been "talking" to you through it so I feel silly writing it again.
    I am, of course, thinking of you. :)


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