Monday, August 9, 2010
Fishing for Sane - An Explanation
Okay, for a Leo, I am weird about wanting attention. I like it, but I like it the way I want it, when I want it. Yeah, there might be more to that cat thing than I realized...
Anywho, I am very self-conscious about my body, and I definitely have some tran tendencies. I have always known that the most difficult part about being pregnant would be my BBS getting big and fairly obvious. I'm just not comfortable with them. I don't know how else to explain it. I like to look sexy. Sometimes. Most days I just want to be comfortable. And my body is defying me right now....it's taken over and it's saying, "Ha! You aren't in control anymore!" That would be another one of those Leo traits I got....
So for me to be uncomfortable in my skin and getting stares and comments is difficult. Plus, the biggest downside to being out about my IF is that EVERYONE is tracking my progress. So, bigger BBS = pregnancy, and everyone thinks I should be thrilled and that it's a definite. I know better. Hello? Progesterone? (Oops, let me tighten up the reel a bit....there!)
So, it's a comfort thing. I am more comfortable being androgynous. I know it doesn't make sense in the realm of wanting to become a mother. It's something I am going to learn to live with. And it's fine. It's just an adjustment. But I wanted to explain.
In the vein of learning to love myself, I am posting one of my favorite empowerment songs. Enjoy, and Happy Monday (which was not so perfect, but oh, well).
Posted by Kakunaa at 11:07 AM