There is still this gut feeling that once we get there and try, that it will fail. That I'm not meant to be Pg ever. That maybe I should just accept that and move on to other options. But how can that be? Insert platitude here.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
IMPATIENT!!!
Alright, I'll admit it....I'm inpatient. I just want to move forward. But the reality is it's going to take months, maybe a year, before we have enough to move forward with the first cycle. A year of watching my friends bellies or children grow. A year of making baby blankets for other people, a year of AF pissing me off. A year of eggs growing older. A year of waiting and trying not to think about it. That's like telling someone, "Hey, you're gonna die tomorrow, but let's enjoy today!".
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Welcome to blogging. I found your blog through LFCA and we have some similar situations in our stories. This IF crap is really really hard and I hope you find the blogging IF community to help you through.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Michelle! It is both helpful and a bit nerve-wracking seeing what everyone goes through and for how long. I have to figure out what is going to be right for us...I'm a wreck most of the time, and the hurry up and wait is killing me. I can't imagine getting through all of this waiting and saving. I want to move on, and if it doesn't work, be able to move on from there. It's like it's all on hold now....
ReplyDeleteHang in there. I know its hard. Believe me I know. I'm your newest follower from Lost and Found Connections.
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