Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Just Keep Swimming....

I spent the weekend tracking down information about what meds are covered, copays, lifetime max's, etc. The question of embryo cryo is still up in the air. I have my case manager researching that. And now it's time to make a plan for the saving of $3000. Anyone know of a ticker for money saving? LOL.

I had a panic attack at work yesterday, with no discernible trigger. I am in training, so I pulled my trainer aside and "out-ed" myself, so to speak, and now have freedom to get up and walk around or get out for a breath of fresh air if needed. Going back on the phones in 2 weeks is going to be hell. Coworkers started talking about their kids, and I had to leave the room. BUT, I successfully watched Julie & Julia without freaking out too badly during those 2 little snippets...so I suppose that is progress.

In Blog land, I'm kind of excited...added to the Blogroll on Stirrup Queens, signed up for April's ICLW, and have a couple of new followers thanks to LFCA. It's good to not feel alone, at least in internet land. Real land, well, that's another story.

I am still struggling with whether IVF is the way to go or not. Stupid gut feeling saying it's not going to work and will be more heartache than it is worth. But, since it's not going to happen overnight, and we have to save for it, I've got time to make that decision. Does anyone else feel that way? How do you not lose hope?


  1. tickerfactory.com has all kinds of money saving tickers. I wrote a post called: How to Save 20k in 6 months (http://sohardtrying.blogspot.com/2010/02/how-to-save-20k-in-8-months.html) maybe some of the comments on that post might help you save as well. Good Luck! I know how expensive this stuff is.

  2. Hey lady, stopping by to say hello & welcome from LFCA:) I hear you on the money saving thing, we just finished our first round of IVF & while I can tell you the money part was painful it was all worth it.
    I think we all have moments of doubt, when we're unsure if we can continue to hold onto hope...that's why this amazing IF blogosphere is so helpful. They continually lift you up when you are on the down slope & need encouragement. Blogging & joining this amazing support group of women has by far been one of the best things I've done during my IF journey & I'm sure you'll find the same for you. Welcome & I hope you too feel carried when needed:)

  3. We have twins as a result of donor embryos. It took us almost 10 years to have these beautiful babies, but it was all worth it. If you ever need anything or have any questions, don't hesitate to email me. missyconception at gmail dot com

    Best of luck!!
    Here from Lost And Found

  4. Thanks, Missy, Rebecca, and Michelle. I'm loving all this support. You are all amazing!


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