Since our news the other day, I've been pretty happy, no freakouts, no weird reactions to Pg bellies or kids. Hope is a cool thing. Still, I try to look for the things that will bring me peace overall, as opposed to nerves about IVF.
This morning I plugged into my iPod, grabbed a book, and spent a few quality minutes in the sunshine under a Tulip Poplar amongst the petals. There are some on my desk as I write this. Have you ever smelled or touched a flower from this magnificently blooming Spring treat? They are thick and waxy, but smooth. Flushes of pink/purple run from the base to the tip, and they feel like the softest skin ever. I laid in the sunshine running them over my arms, lips, like being caressed, breathing in their sweet odor, much like i hope to do some day with a baby of my own.
And for those few moments, and some snuck in here at work with my outside brought inside, I can maintain that peace, have those secret moments even surrounded by work, reminders, noise....
Where do you find your peace?