Sunday, April 4, 2010


Alright, I'll admit it....I'm inpatient. I just want to move forward. But the reality is it's going to take months, maybe a year, before we have enough to move forward with the first cycle. A year of watching my friends bellies or children grow. A year of making baby blankets for other people, a year of AF pissing me off. A year of eggs growing older. A year of waiting and trying not to think about it. That's like telling someone, "Hey, you're gonna die tomorrow, but let's enjoy today!".

There is still this gut feeling that once we get there and try, that it will fail. That I'm not meant to be Pg ever. That maybe I should just accept that and move on to other options. But how can that be? Insert platitude here.


  1. Welcome to blogging. I found your blog through LFCA and we have some similar situations in our stories. This IF crap is really really hard and I hope you find the blogging IF community to help you through.

  2. Thank you, Michelle! It is both helpful and a bit nerve-wracking seeing what everyone goes through and for how long. I have to figure out what is going to be right for us...I'm a wreck most of the time, and the hurry up and wait is killing me. I can't imagine getting through all of this waiting and saving. I want to move on, and if it doesn't work, be able to move on from there. It's like it's all on hold now....

  3. Hang in there. I know its hard. Believe me I know. I'm your newest follower from Lost and Found Connections.



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