Ramblings of an Exhausted Insomniac

Good morning, Bleeps!!! Welcome to May's ICLW! For those of you new to my little world, I apologize for this post. I've barely slept in weeks, and this week has been particularly bad, so I'm a bit loony toons this morning. I have been working on this post all night in my head, and started at 4 am with the actual computer stuff to make it happen. I'm a tired girl, and my brain won't shut up, so this could be long. If you would like to play catch up on our story, click the link above that says "Our TTC Journey."

Let's see, I'll start with it being Photo Friday with today's project being something called Through the Viewfinder (TTV). Below is the TTV photo, followed by the original. I don't know how I feel about what I chose, but I plan to continue messing around with this, because it's freakin cool and fun. For those interested, original photo taken at Yellowstone National Park back in 2003.

Next on the agenda is the Name My Uterus Contest for which I am still taking entries. I thought it would be fun to continue taking entries through ICLW - perhaps I will get a LOT. I have to say, the entries so far have been fantastic! Thank you so much, ladies!

CD32, still no red-headed step-child. So, because Frog is freaked out (and DH knows nothing since technically he didn't want to know if men were involved in this open marriage thing), I will be POAS later today. I bought 2 at the dollar store. Can't believe I'm doing it. Feels weird, considering the nearly absolute impossibility, but hey, I needed something to do today. Results tomorrow (negative, I assure you).

As I mentioned, STILL not sleeping. At last GP appointment, he prescribed Lun.esta. Long story short, insurance companies are fun, and he had to change it, which took a week of phone tag, so Monday night I started on Res.toril. One of the side effects (1.2% of people) is nightmares or vivid dreams. You guessed it. I got it. Also got additional anxiety (2.0%). I gave it 3 nights and am giving the hell up. I couldn't take it. So last night I tried Valerian root......no go. No crazy dreams, but no sleep, either. I refuse to nap today....maybe that will give me a fair shot tonight. Cross your fingers for me.....because I REALLY need some freaking sleep.

Next up (I warned you this would be long - remember, brain won't let me sleep so I think ALL NIGHT) is a shout-out to Mel at Stirrup Queens for all the projects she puts together. And for the amount of reading she must do to keep up with us all. I accidentally deleted my blogroll yesterday, but luckily had one of my pages open and was able to re-do it. Which is when I realized I follow 59 blogs. 59. And I can barely keep up. Mel has a blogroll of over 2000!!! Seriously? All hail the freakin Queen. I would also like to shout out to K because that woman manages a witty, and more importantly, succinct post every day. Unlike my novels of verbal vomit. Kudos to you! Besides, I won a drawing on her page, and the envelope came with a note written on....toilet paper. I love that woman.

Last night DH and I watched Edge of Darkness with Frog and Pixie. Bad flick for someone with anxiety issues, let me tell you. BUT, that's not actually the point. There is a scene ****SPOILER ALERT**** in the movie where Mel Gibson's character is shaving, and his daughter hallucination comes in the room and wants to shave as well. Like a good daddy, he puts shaving cream all over her face, and she shaves with him, same moves, but with a comb. Serious Daddy/Daughter moment. I wept. Father's Day is around the corner, and no daughter for hubby to be a daddy to. It was very poignant. And I'm a sap. But, yeah, I was a little blown away by my reaction to that. Apparently it's not just Pg bellies and ultrasounds that will do me in anymore.

Okay, I will stop now. I think I covered everything I wanted to, and if not, oh freakin' well, there's always tomorrow. I'm off to read some new blogs! Happy ICLW to you all :) I am leaving you with a video of a song that gets me through, and has for years. One of my support songs. Now, the video is absolute cheese, as it was the 80's, so if you can't take it, close your eyes and just listen to the words. Enjoy. Happy Friday and Happy Reading!