First off...it's Photo Friday! This week is desks. As I am off work, here is the "man-cave" at home where I usually blog. (Today, of course, being the exception - I'm at Frog's house). Yes, it's a mess, most of it mine. DH can't wait to get another desk and set up the 2nd computer so that he can have his desk back and free of all my shit.
As for the title of this post, my favorite TV show of all time is M*A*S*H, and in the final episode, Hawkeye says that...or something very close. (I couldn't find the exact quote, unfortunately.) Anywho, it applies.
I have wanted to post the past couple of days, but just couldn't narrow down what to say. My brain just NEVER shuts up, and I don't want this to turn into the most rambling blog of all time. And while being "afraid" of children might be an overstatement, it's close. Going out, seeing baby stuff, kid stuff, kids....makes me shut down. Makes me walk away. So, this quote has been running through my head for a couple of days now.
I'm so overwhelmed by my energizer bunny brain that I don't even know where to start, honestly. I'm on CD18 - in a couple of weeks I start BCP and then it's on to the actual IVF stuff. I'm nervous. I'm terrified, to be honest. Of it not working. Of the injections. Of the possible disappointment. And I go back to work next week....4 more days off. I'm petrified of that. I am doing better, but still quite nervous about the real world, followed very closely by possibly the most important 4-6 weeks of my life medically, and emotionally, speaking.
It's all too much. Thus....no posts for a couple of days. I just didn't know where to begin.