So, I'm a terrible poster and commenter this week. I will catch up on you all at some point, I promise. I've had a lot on my mind, plus the whole can't sit up for very long thing. Doing much better. No crutches...Just some lingering neck and shoulder pain.
Thought yesterday was CD1, so I called, scheduled b/w for tomorrow and dildo-cam.....and then it stopped. No flow. Nada. I'm not usually a spotter. So.....I have no idea????? I am still going in tomorrow and we'll see what we see. So I have a tentative IVF schedule, but I'm holding off on posting it until I know more with WTF is going on my with my body.
Other confusion is with regard to Frog and Pixie. I love DH so much....but I've realized I love them as well, more than is probably healthy in all of this. I love being at their house. I love spending the night. I love them. I love our relationship. I feel like I have 2 lives, and I'm not sure how to deal with it, honestly....I can't lose them. Or DH. So I'm working on a balance. I wish I wasn't the way that I am....a big heart with room for many and difficulty only having one person in my life. I was built funny....I don't work right. I don't know.
Going back to work Saturday.....ugh. So nervous about that. Nervous about the reality of this cycle beginning, nervous about no longer being on the meds that keep me (mostly) balanced....
So, again, sorry for not being around much this week....I appreciate all the comments, though, and I hope everyone is having a good week. Major hugs to you all.