It's like a great big evil circle. IF messes with you - I'm all wacked out from stress: depression and anxiety rule my world, making me lose weight and not sleep. Since I am about to start my cycle, I can't take anything for it. Which makes it worse. And yet, I need to be super healthy and NOT stressed to have the best chance for successful IVF. Which is super-stressful on its own. Its a vicious circle, and I haven't figured out yet how to be okay with all of it.
I missed work yesterday....and we REALLY can't afford that! I made a vow to myself that if this cycle doesn't work I am beginning a job hunt. I still want something with benefits, obviously, but something I don't dread going to every day. If it works....well, I'll stick it out for a while.
So, here's hoping I can make myself eat lots....and that I don't lose it at work today. Happy weekend to those of you with normal jobs!