Saturday, June 26, 2010

Operation Weight Gain: Update 1

Protein shakes didn't work out so well. I made it through one on Thursday, and it took me HOURS. I was dry-heaving and it gave me a migraine. Tried a weaker one yesterday morning, and was over the toilet within 3 sips. Migraine back. Soooooo.....that's obviously not going to work. We are super-broke, so the food I would like to buy to help me out that I think I can get down we can't. IE, nuts 'n stuff. Had a few eggs and bacon left in the fridge this morning, so I'm eating that and hoping it stays put....

It's like a great big evil circle. IF messes with you - I'm all wacked out from stress: depression and anxiety rule my world, making me lose weight and not sleep. Since I am about to start my cycle, I can't take anything for it. Which makes it worse. And yet, I need to be super healthy and NOT stressed to have the best chance for successful IVF. Which is super-stressful on its own. Its a vicious circle, and I haven't figured out yet how to be okay with all of it.

I missed work yesterday....and we REALLY can't afford that! I made a vow to myself that if this cycle doesn't work I am beginning a job hunt. I still want something with benefits, obviously, but something I don't dread going to every day. If it works....well, I'll stick it out for a while.

So, here's hoping I can make myself eat lots....and that I don't lose it at work today. Happy weekend to those of you with normal jobs!


  1. Good luck with the weight gain. I've been trying to put on a few pounds for months and no such luck yet. If you figure out what works, let me know. I hope you feel better soon!

  2. Would bread help with your weight gain? It might be worth trying if you haven't already, and if you can stomach it. That and drinking a lot of juice.

    I hope you find something that works for you!

  3. Bread is a great suggestion, if you can keep it down. Maybe add a little olive oil or peanut butter for good fats and protein. I'm sorry you are having a tough time right now. This is all so tough and exhausting, I hope things get better soon.

  4. Good luck on the weight gain, I never realized it would be difficult to do!

    I understand the med issue. I went off my stuff before IVF. Trying my best to cope.


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