Friday Night Leftovers: I'm Alive!!!

Hey, it's my Friday, that counts, right?  Well, it has to.

• I suck.  I will say it out loud.  I keep trying to fit blogging into my schedule and I am failing miserably.  Which is sad, because I'm not even working full time!  I promise to do better...I know I have missed A LOT!!!
• I am alive.  I promise.  This going back to work thing has really thrown a wrench in my flow.  And it turns out that 4 months off did NOT help my performance any.  Le Sigh.
• The sperm bank sends me emails about specials and newsletters.  Seriously, I'm not sure which is funnier, the fact that I get emails from a sperm bank, or the fact that they run specials.  LOL.  
• I have FINALLY gotten a couple smiles from P, but not in about a week now.  I swear, he is teasing me.  He is VERY serious...like I was as a baby.
• AWESOME site for BF'ing: Kellymom.com - a woman at work with whom I pump directed me there.  It makes me feel better, because apparently I pump what is normal, and all of you 4oz and up people are over-producers.  This doesn't really stop the frustration, but at least I know that I'm not really UNDER-producing.
• Fenugreek is cool - if I forget deodorant (allllll the time) it is okay because I smell like pancakes :-)
• If I am lucky, I put my hair back in clips, brush my teeth, shower, and manage deodorant all in the same day.  That's an AMAZING day.  
• My nails are a mess.  I had them done while PG and then removed.  They were growing out and with the baby, I can't stand to deal with them, so I'm damn near biting them again.  In lieu of that I obsessively trim them.  I'm considering having them done again, but I wash them so frequently I think it's a bad idea.  But it would make me feel like less of a frump, ya know?
• I am shocked at how well I can function on only a few hours of sleep with NO caffeine.  But I am EXHAUSTED all the time.  
• Still co-sleeping. I gave up.  Fuck it.  If it means I get more sleep, so be it.
• P is acting just like he should for his ADJUSTED age, which is reassuring....but man I want smiles.  No....my kid CRIES when I walk in the door.  Because he wants me, but still....
• Things here at the house have been tense.  I made a social networking faux pas.  But it seems to be better.  And our yard is looking FANTASTIC!  I have to get photos for you guys!  It's tiny, but it looks sooooo much better.  
• Have I mentioned I am exhausted, LOL.  And I wouldn't change it for a minute.
• I miss you guys, though.  Must get back into reading up on everyone.  I feel soooo out of the loop.  
• I know there was more...but see 2 bullet points up - I can't remember ANYTHING.
• Oh, I know.  I have not lost any weight since that first full week home.  I am curvy. I gave in and bought pants.  Curves it is.  It will come off or it won't.  Who knows.