I think part of what has me feeling ready to be done being pregnant is that last time, I was nearly done at this point. I only had 9 days more! So I feel there.
Which is also where the freak out about not being ready is. 9 days simply isn't enough!
It's a weird place to be in.
My friend Heather voiced concerns about my weaning off meds. I started it simply because I wasn't sure when I would be able to get a doctor to prescribe more - and on its own it is a $700/month medication. And cold turkey is BAD. I'm not worried about being on it while breastfeeding - I looked into that months ago. I had an ICLBC friend look it up for me. It's actually considered safer breastfeeding than in pregnancy it looks like, so I let that worry go.
I really am trying to balance everything here. I am.
Who knows when Finn will arrive, how he will arrive. I need to stop focusing on that and start making sure I'm ready. You know, in the next 9 days. Just in case.