I did not mean to leave you hanging. I needed some days for me. To figure out things.
As I surmised, when I went in to work Sunday morning, I was let go. Their minds were made up. Perhaps if I had been coherent enough to fight for it Thursday things would have been different, but it's okay. I came home and crawled into bed for HOURS.
But, I got up. Thanks to Twitter and FB pics of brooms standing on their own. Because that was too fun to pass up. And my broom has been standing in our kitchen for days. I keep having to say "Excuse me" when I go around it. Yeah, I have issues. What of it? The point is, I got up.
You wanna know something? I haven't had GI pyrotechnics since Thursday. Nada. I feel free. Yup, terrified. Mortgage commitment on the house is due today. Appraisal was done and we are on our own for the shitty electrical system, but it looks like we may just squeak through and get this house. Now I need an income.
I filed for unemployment yesterday. As soon as I got out of bed (at 6 am, thank you P for not wanting to sleep in when Mama is home!). Now, my former employer is notorious for fighting the unemployment in situations like mine. But here is the thing...I had already filed an FMLA request for the IBS. And my doctor will attest to the fact that I was more likely than not in a manic state. And I sought treatment as soon as I knew I was off, once they finally brought that to my attention. So I am hoping I have a leg to stand on, as it were. Today I am going to hang with a friend. Get out. But later, I will be applying for food stamps. Because we sure as hell qualify now!
As soon as the commitment comes through I am diving full throttle into the packing and cleaning and repairing of this house. I am going to enjoy some of this time off. Take a long overdue trip or 2 (on the cheap), bake, cook, you name it. And job hunt. I am looking into a WAHM job, but until the electrical issue is resolved, that is out. I have insurance through the end of the month. And then I will put P on CHIP and hope for the best for us. Generic meds will help - there are cheapies available.
I am going to watch my son learn to walk. Take photos of him smashing a cake for his first birthday (we are not doing a big party or anything). Learn all about landscaping and start things in our house/yard that I can do with very little monetary input. It turns out I can potentially get money from the state toward training of some sort. So definitely looking into that. I can do this, you guys.
I CAN DO THIS.